For the past couple days I’ve been messing about with downloading windowsblinds and stuff to spruce up the look of XP, there’s so many kewl styles, widgets and desktopXP themes. I have loads of windowsblinds installed but am thinking of taking some out because they have small glitches. I can’t stand the lil messed up parts and wont ever use them no matter how much I like them IF they have a minor glitch. So that’ll be my next thing to do is to go threw them all one by one and see how much I really do like them, after all I don’t want to overload my new bitch with things I’ll never use. I need to move some stuff around on the puter as well since my drives are partitioned I don’t want the main drive to get bogged down.

Although that’s not happened yet I just want to make sure.

Work wasn’t too bad yesterday, it was steady, but I wouldn’t say busy. I Agreed to go in for an hour tomorrow morning after taking Jennah to school so that Kelly can get a spot on her head looked at. I was telling her on Thursday that she needed to get that looked at. So why not come in and cover her for that hour or so. :shrug

Things are still really strange around here, and still stange with Amber, which I’m thinking that the strangness wont change between any of us. There’s so many years of crap running threw my head. And in time I think I may get into more of it on here. Cause I think it may help me deal with it all, for the most part for Jennahs sake, not mine. I of all things hate hurting ppl who’ve meant alot to me in anyway. :( But I’m hurting in my own right and in my own ways with all that’s happened and that’s gone on for so long it’s hard not to.

I think I have to stop being so hard on myself and so negative. I just get so flustered and uneasy at times with the way we’re living. Its hard.