Wow.. I’ve not had this much confusion and being upset in a long time.  I got a call from my mom today that her dad passed away. I’d not seen him since Jennah was a baby. I didn’t get upset, but felt really sad for my mom, her mother passed away about a year or so before Jennah was born, my mom took it real bad  back then I hadn’t built the barrier I have up now. So it crushed me to hear my mom so upset, we still had this really weird bond. I was(and still am) the type of person that hurts to be without family, but wants more than nothing to have as positive as possible life for my children. I’m struggling so hard to give that to Jennah, were-as my mother, didn’t!  Now since my mom’s illness’s last March, it’s strange she calls me more often, and actually asks about Jennah. She suffered a lot, and I often wonder being that I’m so on my own with really no one to turn to, other than Jays parent’s which is something I try not to do. And really are they any different than my family? Not really. They play favorites with the kids, Jennah feels like somewhat of an outcast, as do I. Which for me it’s only natural being that I’m the EX daughter in law. And I try so hard to limit myself as much as possible, and take the odd invite to dinner, and I do Jennah and I’s laundry there. & yes now they’re moving below me……

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